3 years on

3 years ago today my brother was murdered. Its not really a day I enjoy, but one I seldom forget. Thankfully, I'm away on holiday from tomorrow, so that helps. I'll be thinking of you Jody.

A break away........

Sorry for all 5 disappointed readers, but been to Cornwall to see family. Was ok but very quite without my brother there.

My Brother's killer given life.....

Last week I pointed out the Killer of my brother was to be sentenced to life in prison. But can appeal after 13 years (minus 252 days). The assault on my brother (read here was awful. That he got such a low tarif makes me sad and wonder what he needed to get a higher one. His Excuses that he had ADHD, had a bad upbring etc disgust me. I mean, his mum and step-father were there for him and he says that. This guy was a violent thug, on the sex offenders list and with a history of violence and a police record. This was always likely to happen. His so called feelings of remorse went so far as to saying he had not done it for three months, even though the police had his bloodied trainers and socks.
I really hope he is never released, as this will happen again with this 'person'. He's unstable and a menace to society. If he came out and did this again my family would be tormented forever, as we would feel responsible we had not made it longer. I don't say this through hatred (I have enough), but find out his history.
He has put my family through hell. My parents miss my brother so much. Its like a bomb has landed on them and there looking through the emotional rubble. They did everything for him and everything with him.
I miss Jody so much. He was a lovely guy, sweet natured, hard working, his own man and most importantly my brother. How I move on is hard at the moment, but I thanfully have the support of many friends and the concerns of my parents.
Jody, i'll always love you but miss him even more.

I hope he rots in hell.....

I was infotmed today that Dean Grainger has pleaded guilty. He will be sentenced tomorrow. He has put my family through hell and what he did to my brother was sickening. He should be not on the streets like other thugs and scumbags that ruin peoples lives. Grainger was going to pleaded diminished responsibility, but changed his plea. I won't see the scumbags face as I don't go until wednesday night. I hope his sentence is long.

My Brothers trial

On monday the 30.03.09 the murder of my brother begins. I don't go down until the Wednesday, thankfully missing what my brother endured. I pray the 'person' who did this stays inside a very long time,

Brothers court case

Most of may know of my brothers murder. Well the accused has pleaded 'not guilty'. I can't say much more on the because of due process. We know await the trial. this will be the 30th of march (3 weeks after my brothers birthday and the day before my mums). Tomorrow will be the first anniversary of my grandfather passing away. Life don't seem so good. Thank god I have my girlfriend.

Saying good bye

I went down to Cornwall this weekend. Since my brothers death I have not been as much as I had hoped with other commitments (like weddings and house hunting). We (my niece and parents that is) had to pack his so few belongings. It brought home I have no future with this person, just cherished memories. I some times feel this gets better, but it always comes back. Hopefully some day the loss might not be so sharp.
On my journey home I started using his photo's in Imovie. I loved doing it, but just so few photo's of one I held so dear. I think of what one blogger wrote previously to me:-

I also lost a brother. He was 24; I was 26. At 53, he's still as alive in my heart and in my head as ever, though we will never get to compare wrinkles. His birthday is coming up: August 7. I will be celebrating it with him in my dreams.

I miss you everyday Jo.

The funeral

On friday we buried my brother. In a moving ceremony we celebrated my brothers short life. I keep strong for my family, but the void he leaves is irreplacable. I'll always miss you Jody and thankful for the time you gave me and promise to stay strong for you and mum and Pete. You would have done so for me.

Funeral

As you may know, my brother was murdered. This friday we will finally lay him to rest. I miss him terribly, but i'd like to say thanks to some lovely comments left behind and the support I have had, especially Phil Bradley's. I will always remember the good times. But always hoped for more......

Jody the Junglist

This is for my brother, who passed away. Here are 2 links. One from the BBC and video a great friend made of him. Thanks for everyones thoughts. Its appreciated.